This post is going to be largely out of character for me, because it takes something monumental for me to reach across the gap of human communication and spend the effort trying to connect how I feel to anyone who is not closest to me. At the same time I have high hopes that if I keep throwing my words out into the inter-webs that I will find more sure-shelter friends and peers with similar motivations to my own.
The video to below made me cry and think and write yesterday. I am starting to feel the ripples of what paying-it-forward does, but it will be a few years yet before I will be able to fully convince myself that what I am doing has “real” value. Thankfully, these days the self doubt is not paralyzing, just annoying and occasionally distracting for a few days at a time.